So its been a while and I think an update is definitely necessary.
James and I have gone from partners to friends and before anyone jumps the gun, we're both in really great places. The reasons aren't important, but what is important is that it's understood that this obviously wouldnt have happened if it wasn't necessary and for the better.
Something that has always amazed me is that everyone has so much of their own stuff going on that no one knows about. We think we know about people from what we see on social media, or what we hear through other people but often theres so much under the surface which is what I hope you'll keep in mind. To be honest I don't really want to go into detail. I feel like as much as I enjoy sharing things on here, that some things are better kept personal.
All I will say is that its been just over a month now and although of course it wasn't easy at first it's been a (can't think of the right word to describe it) experience for the both of us which we both agree we've come out better from. James still lives with me temporarily but we still talk about how even when he doesn't anymore, we look forward to going for coffee together and supporting one another through the ups and downs life throws at us. I still consider James one of the most important people in my life and I'm glad that both of us have been able to stay on such the same page throughout this all.
As for myself personally, I'm a-ok. :) The biggest challenge is that for the first time in a long time I don't know exactly what's next. Life's had so much structure & now it's gone and I'm not sure how I feel about it. (we all know the inner stress/control/planning freak inside of me is freaking out) but at the same time life has this way of always working out for the better so hidden in the anticipation is also excitement.
2016, you're going to be a year to remember.