Overflowing with gratitude.
Im giddy tonight. I'm just so grateful. I never know how to put things into words especially when my emotions are so high but I just have the most incredibly beautiful people in my life and I try so hard to let them know how much I adore them but I never feel like I can show it enough but tonight I'm like dlaskjaslkjsal and just feel like hugging everyone I know and never letting go.
I guess I'm so happy because I mean it when I say I honestly try so hard with the relationships I have in my life. I have so much love in my heart for the people I'm close to and I guess people have different priorities, and right now relationships is such a high one for me. My days off are always filled with plans. I'll message you if I'm coming your way and see if you're free, after I see anyone I always message them to thank them or just to tell them how much fun I had and how much I adore them, I put so much effort into all of it and I feel like tonight for some reason I just feel so happy and satisfied and grateful and I just feel like I'm really happy with the people I have in my life this is just so crapply written but my heart feelings are too strong my brain isn't working i dont know.
Just...how wonderful to feel so much love from the people in your life that you literally get the same feelings that being in love gives you. Tonight I saw Jenny and after she left I played music and sang and danced and literally you'd think that I just gone on a great date or something. (Which, lets be honest, watching Friends and D&Ms is a great date, so...) Afterwords I was so happy I messaged her and said "Oi can i just say i friggen love you" and she said "Oi I friggen love u" (haha true romantics) but really, just to be able to sit with someone and be so on the same page and talk so deeply and them still love you after seeing your flaws, its just the best. I also saw Lauren this morning for coffee and felt the same feelings. Honestly I admire this girl so much because she is everything I wish I could be - so honest with her emotions and has so much love in her heart and honestly will just let her walls down with people and I admire it so much. I have these huge brick walls and just refuse to let anyone see they've effected me emotionally, or that I miss them, or anything that requires vulnerability and honestly if I could be half as brave as this girl...She says she's a mess but she's actually just the most beautiful thing and got so much love in her heart. This girl is just wonderful and brave and I learn so much from her.
THERES JUST so many people that I wish I could sit and tell them everything I love about them and everything that I'm grateful for and why they're beautiful but take this really HORRIBLY written blog as me telling you that if you're in my life its because you are just so so sosososososososo beautiful and i love you.